02-16 189.5

7:30am
There..that's better. 189.5. Whew!! I thought it was going to take longer than this to get back down there. So... I'm back on track and ready to end with a bang. I hope I can hit the 20 lb (or more) mark before I go see Melissa on Thursday. I REALLY wish my clothes were loose enough that I could at least go buy a size smaller pair of pants or two. AND..I'm still waiting for that ONE person (who doesn't know I'm doing this) to say, "Damn, woman!! Are you losing weight?? You look GOOD!!!" OK, that was a bit much but I AM still waiting for it to be noticeable.
I forgot to write something the other day...(I think). We did some running on Saturday morning and by lunchtime, I was VERY hungry. Alan and Dale wanted to stop at Subway. Uh oh!!! The smell of fresh baked bread at Subway will be like going in front of a firing squad. I would CRAVE a sandwich. So..we go in. Alan and Dale order their sandwiches and I order....wait for it.....a salad, just lettuce and chicken (their chicken breasts are about 4 oz each..I asked). The little shit kept asking if I wanted cheese or dressing or anything else. "No, thanks", I said. Finally, he said, "Are you SURE you don't want anything else on this?" I said, " I would LOVE everything on it...but I can't have it right now, but thanks for your concern." Alan laughed. I guess I was just proud of myself for actually going in there and ordering something I could actually have.

9:00pm
I am getting very tired now, but that's probably because I didn't sleep well last night. I have not been starving today at all. I had lunch about 1:30 (lettuce with my dressing and grilled chicken and an orange). For dinner I had my chili and apple cobbler. I ate around 6 and am still feeling very satisfied. I'm getting a bit concerned about going into the maintenance phase. I KNOW I won't be losing as fast as I am now and I just hope that I can wrap my mind around that and NOT get discouraged.

I DID make a purchase today. Something I haven't had for a very long time. I bought a belt. I know that sounds crazy but when I got dressed today, I thought I would try and tuck my shit in. I had to have a belt to "finish the look". I was/am very self conscious about going out like that but I did. The only person to say anything about it was Annette...go figure. Thanks for the compliment, sweetie! No one at work has said anything about it. Maybe it doesn't look as good as I thought. :)

We will see what the scale says tomorrow. I hope I am out of the 190's for good.